I love love!

It is already 21.30 and I haven't read more than 10 pages for my exam tomorrow. I hate Social Sciences. I also can't stop looking at outfits girls post on the internet. It is too.fucking.addictive. Blogs are my darkest and deepest obsession. I can't stop. Also, we spent 4 hours together today. We had time for laughs, tears, screams and kisses. All my insides clutched and twisted at his words. Today was a special day. I have to change my layout. It's irritating.

Oh and also, I will start taking my camera with me from tomorrow.

(I can't study.)

The Age of Aquarius? oh Please no.

I very much dislike aquariuses. I think i might actually hate them .

"Suck it all in: Distracted! Conflicted! Pathetic"

It's S's Birthday today. I called early in the morning to wish her an amazing day. Just as I suspected, she wasn't excited much about it. Later on she was in a much better mood after her mom's surprise martini and strawberries dipped in white choco party! :)

On Saturday we are going to celebrate it at my place. 7 people in my small room sometimes I can't even fit in?! FUN. That's not the part I am worried about though, for the last 4 days I have been so good. Tomorrow won't be an exception. But I am afraid of Saturday. Night, alcohol and an empty stomach. It's like letting a wild animal loose after training him for only a week. It was not enough for me. This will be a day I get to exercise my will power. I can't decide whether I want to do it or not.

Everyday I find obsession

On Saturday morning I saw the girl with the perfect style. Dark, ominous and funky. She wore rolled up black trousers, black socks and black chunky shoes. She had bright red hair and a short cut. She was beautiful. I thought I would have the exactly same style if I were as thin as she was. I thought of asking her to pose for me as I had Wall-E with me but lots of excuses not to do it entered my mind,so I didn't. I have been thinking of her since.
Oh and I also saw a beautiful tulle skirt in the window of Arnotts on Henry St. After just one look at it I could imagine me wearing it and all the outfits I could make with it. It's not for sale. :O


My latest obsession, dark hair and black and white pictures.

let the sun shine!

I love the sun! I get overexcited and really happy when it is sunny outside. Lately it has been so sunny I am scared it will soon start raining again. Anyway, yesterday I had a beautiful day. Breakfast in town with my parents then drove back to Ashbourne and when I saw dandelions on the side road I had an amazing idea. So I picked a few of them, mom-mom made me a little crown and dad-dad took pictures in our back garden. I felt hippy and free. The result is not bad at all. I did have a little panic attack though when I saw how big my hamster cheeks actually are. :( .

Went with S and had cocktails in the Living Room, danced like there was no tomorrow and left. Too many acquaintances there I never really fancy seeing. So we went to Di and he greeted us with a bottle of homemade liqueur. A few shots later, catching up and diry talk we went home singing to our neighbours(4am).

Love my wife.

waster

Fuck being lazy. I'm going running!

...
while running I realised I need a detox week. Must happen. S's Birthday next Saturday which means whiskey,vodka, martini and beer; food and cigarettes. I have witnesses.

I'm late,for a very important date...

one hour late, so he got me flowers. I melted on the spot.

long time no muse...

3 months later I'm still unhappy about my life...the pile of books in the corner now have 1centimeter worth of dust, I have no Chanel or Prada rather €2,50 in my wallet and €0.00 in my bank A/C. I still look forward to something, annoyed at my daily thoughts and no actions and the weight that was supposed to magically disappear in 1 month, disturbingly welcomed some more....fat. However I cannot say I haven't progressed, I do live in Dublin city now. Small cosy studio apartment in Ranelagh, which is ,as my good friend Tómas pointed out, posh! I always do get the muse in here, but as I am a student and very much broke, I cannot afford internet. Today however, I decided it was time I finally caught the signal from that one network with no password. Sorry, neighbour! I don't want to sleep but write and do things I delayed for a long time, such as edit and organise my pictures. It is however 2am and I have to wake up tomorrow at 7, 9am Aural French exam(I close my eyes every time I see that word)!
I do hope I can catch the internet again, and FINALLY do this.

My favourite part of the apartment.