constantly avoiding

It's been so long, so many things have happened and I have so much on my mind. The thing is, I've been avoiding doing this. Not because I don't have time, sure I don't but I still sometimes sit around doing nothing while I could be writing here. I was avoiding it because there's so much to say, so many plans. In a way I was scared it won't be interesting. Then I stopped looking at blogs all together because by looking at them I realised time doesn't stop. Especially all over the world where something exciting and different is happening in people's lives. It is a threat to me. Somehow by stopping following blogs I stopped all these wonderful people from doing these exciting things I want to do. All in my head of course. Then my twentieth is approaching and that makes it an even bigger threat. Everytime I read someone's blog I look at his/her age and I realise they have done so much more than me. Then I go to college and when I don't know anything I realise I have to put my life on stop and study because I want to know it. I can't however do it all. I wish I never had to sleep. EVER. I could do it for a while, but I still have a lot of hours when I feel tired and I can't manage to do anything productive. As I am writing this I realise would love to put it all in and look at everyone's blog and read them, I realise I am in the mood for doing stuff and I really have to take advantage of it as I have 2 essays due next week and I am terrible with essays.
I organised my time on Monday, and now I need this blog and to follow others in order to survive and feel like I have a place in the world, so I will put an hour everyday dedicated to blog following/writing.
to be continued...

Meet Wall-E

So terribly busy lately... has it been 3 weeks already? Oh my...I will submit this essay and I then make a comeback..and in a much better form too. I know it!

Women are Pigs

models deficit, so I do it all

I died my hair!.. just after this picture was taken at the Botanic Gardens. My dad wanted to do a photoshoot to try a new technique he learnt. So I dressed up, put on my favourite shoes and started posing. The autumn in the garden was so beautiful! The sun and yellow leaves everywhere.



A little too much of me.



Oh procrastination...you are pure EVIL!

I can't stop thinking about whether to dye my hair. I asked my mother, the magic 8 ball..and whatever answer they give me(not to dye it) I want to do the other...of course if they said dye it, ..I'd find reasons not to do it!
 The thing is, I've been obsessing over dying my hair a darker colour for a long time now. There are 2 things stopping me:

1. I don't know whether it suits me(it didn't do much for me before, but then I don't like any colour on me) and
2.  I am trying to grow it, so if I dye it all the damage won't improve so no quick growth for a while.

OH how this is painful. I have so much work to do..and tomorrow I will love doing it of course, but because I am at home and it is Sunday I am doing nothing!! It is so bad...so I am trying to keep myself busy with something(except college work of course)...which means I am procrastinating but also that I am obsessing over things...which is the best thing I do. The other day it was new Jeffrey Campbell shoes(Miramar), today it is dying my hair. I need help!


the picture to blame for the red hair obsession